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i think i was very pampered since young..i still rmbed when i was arnd 5..i wanted to have play dough..then 1 fine nite..mi parents brought mi to toy'r'us to buy..no matter wad i wanted..they gave it to mi..even when i wanted the toy tat came with darlie toothpaste..though mi hs already has a lot of tooth paste..they still drove arnd to buy tat for mi..maybe tat explains mi character now..im determined..im also rather weak i think..i was admitted into the hospital before..coz of high fever..n ive asthma..which i get the attacks quite often..itz cured when i was in pri sch..but sometimes i still cant eat/drink certain stuff which r super sweet n sour(like peel fresh guava juice)..if not i sorta have difficulty breathing..then joined dance..then hurt miself here n there..p2 hurt mi neck..p3 hurt mi head..p5 hurt mi ankle(until now still not fully recovered..)..p6 hurt mi knee..sec 4 hurt mi back..im super duber pro rite?thank you thank you..
then i entered kindergarden..i cant rmb much from kindergarden..i rmb there was this time..thinking back itz realli ridiculous..hahaz..i actualli posted this thing..not say posted la..call 1 fren pass to him..the guy's name is call sun ning..i dunno how come i still rmbed his name..maybe coz itz a very unique name ba..in tat piece of paper..i actualli did wrote.."wld u marry mi"..hahaz..realli..tat doesnt sound like mi now rite..i so ego now..but hey!!k1 onli leh..then read so mani fairytales..(tats y i still believed in fairytales now..)..influence ma..but smth im very sure of..i dun like him..itz juz..those kinda..curious in him u know..coz..hez those super act cool one..hahaz..ya..then i rmb i was curious since young le..i passed arnd another piece of paper..writing to: sharon n from:sharon coz i simply cld not understand wads the diff between to n from which mi teacher taught mi tat time..then..k2 was also the time the first guy like mi..not exactly say like la..coz we were still young then..not knowing affairs of the heart..he was rich..super duber rich..he knows how to roller-skates(which until now i still dunno) n all..tats how mi kindergarden life went passed..
pri sch life..i think i will rmb this for life..p1..theres this guy..(hez xiang lin btw)..hez from g class..im from e class..hez frenz made fun of mi everytime during assembly..then during our silent reading time before assembly..there was once he threw a paper plane with 'i love u' written on it..n tat time i p1 rite..i very scared!!!!the first thing i did when i got home was tell mi mama..(n mi whole family knows about tat)then the next few days..he sent 'flying kisses' n stuff..he stopped when i completely daoed him all the time..then he was in the same class as mi in p5 n 6!!(i cont the story later..)p2-p4..i was bullied by mi classmates..but i had realli gd frenz back then..:)..okie..cont the story..in p5..i freaked out when i knew tat xiang lin was in the same class as mi..but eventualli we became gd frenz..best frenz..rumours passed arnd in class..i almost went into a bgr relationship with someone i didnt like at all at such a tender age u know!!but..well..the story ended in p5..:)..then..another guy..cheng wei..hez studying in australia now..hez 1 very devoted guy..liked mi for 4 solid yrs since p5..i was touched when i knew..but i cldnt accept him..coz itz simply mi principles..of coz..i had super duber gd frenz..pearly n ming ming..this frenship didnt realli cont in sec sch..but gd memories though..both of them didnt like each other..but they stayed together coz of mi u know!!!(too gan dong le..)ahahaz..then..poof!came the very first guy i like in mi entire life..hahaz..
jun xiang..hmm..back in p5..hez called the sissy(oops..sorri jx!!hehez..)hez aint sissy la..but u know pri sch kids..childish ma..then i nv ever did teased him in p5 k..!!except for once i was made to take this dare to call him sissy..ya lor..in p6..hez mi class monitor..n he sat in front of mi..he bullied by mi..everytime kinda kicked by mi..:X..(pai seh la..until now sometimes i still do it..itz mi way of communicating..:X)hahaz..then eventualli..i started to like him..no one in the class knew the truth although there were rumours tat i liked him(n actualli the whole class knew except him..but i kept denying it..)liked him for..1 yr ++ ba..jx..u know..mi sec 1 class..a lot of ppl knew i like u back then u know..hahaz..i didnt dare to tell him..until in sec 2..when i liked another guy le..(clemence)then little did i know..tat tat time we liked each other..but we didnt dare to say..he told mi in sec 3 onli u know..hahaz..
in sec sch life..mi sec 1 days..diff sch from jx..tat time very close to seniors(yee haun,kevin,clem)like yee haun at first..but realised he got gf(clem told mi tat..which was true)then i cant like him le..then in sec 1 yr end..clem keep asking mi out..i think he asked for 9 times n i onli agreed on the 9th..then became very close to him..like practically every day we will talk over the phone de..when rumours fly across at first..i didnt like him..realli..itz was until much later..then i liked him de..but it was a big big mistake..
i became the third party in the relationship between another sharon(senior) n him..i didnt know he had a gf..i asked him a lot of times..n sharon too..but of them denied..n when sharon suspected..i realli didnt like him..as i said..it was until much later..then..they broke up..partly coz of mi..partly coz of him..coz he started to hurt her emotionally..n sharon didnt trust him tat there was nth between mi n clem(there realli isnt)..hmm..but during the period of time whereby i was kept in the dark..i realli liked him a lot..a lot..coz he graduate when i was in sec 1 ma..then he in nyjc..onli rmbed i missed him a lot..cried practically every nite in sec 2..tats how pathetic i was..then..i knew he broke up..still liked him..tat time in sec 2..yr end went out with him alone..he told mi on the train tat he actualli considered us together before..i didnt say anything..coz i tot i dun like him le..but actualli later i knew i still did..then nth happened..when he got a gf when i was in sec 3..i gave up le..spent next 5 mths forgetting him..getting rid of the feelings..i liked him for 1 yr 3 mths 8 days..until now still got contact la..when he sms mi lor..but i dun realli dare to reply..or go out with him..once bitten twice shy..i wun be the third party again..
i think in mi sec sch life..gotta know gd frenz!!wei ting arh..she arh..pro de..knew her in sec 2..knew she didnt realli like mi back then..but then later become gd frenz also..actualli i did smth which upsets her a lot in sec 2..(issit sec 2..?i think so..)okok..i better not say about tat matter anymore or else she will cry like she did in grad day n in the end make mi cry also!!hmm..shes one very..cute gal..think can use tat word to describe her la..(wt u dun get big-headed arh!)hmm..she taught mi a lot of things actualli..1 fren i'll nv forget..now got she got her piggie le..she will treasure him i know..happie for her tat she found her xing fu..:)..realli..hahaz..(and not forgetting shes the first one who asked a hug from mi n i refused to give her at first..!!!hahahaz..hor wt..?)
next person is izyana le..hahaz..hmm..also dunno how come i become close frenz with her leh..we were not in same class ever..then think coz in sec 2 acting committee in prefects..then became very close..n then hang out during recess together..n stuff then became realli gd frenz..izyana..also someone i wun forget..hahaz..sometimes i realli dun understand how come we became this close..she is sama sama ego as mi..but yana..wad i heard was true..sometimes..we gotta put our ego down n do smth..the things in which we nv ever wanted to let go..u know wad i mean?coz..i know..n i dunno u know or not..u cant lose him rite..coz he already formed part of ur life le..maybe next time we go attend lessons which teaches us not to be too ego..:)..hahaz..hmm..dun do anything silly hor..!!both u n him..:)
then bee fang..zoe..li yun..jasmine..pearly..ying xia..n ppl i missed out!!hahaz..realli treasured them..hahaz..i think between us there are realli no secrets..hahaz..zoe arh..sorri..i nv tell u a lot of mi feelings coz i dun wan u (n bee fang) to be stuck in the middle u know..hahaz..if u dun understand..ask bee fang..she knows wad i mean..hmm..bee fang..thanks for being there all the while..li yun..u hor..though already let go le..since no qian gua le..then muz quick quick find xing fu okie..!!:D..n i will rmb wad u wrote to mi in the card..(itz in mi wallet!!)..hahaz..jasmine..pearly..ying xia..thanks for being there when i needed u guyz..!!!realli..thanks..:)..
hmm..i think sec 2 n 3 were mi happiest moments ba..sec 2..coz of irc..got to know a lot of 2e1 ppl..eric..ben..timothy..jun kiat..anthony..bla bla..then eric n i became best frenz..he super duber nice lor..sec 2 i was very sad wad..coz of clemence..then everytime i wld go behind the hall near the cca rms to watch ppl play bball..everytime eric also there de..he was the one who cheered mi up during those sad times..n i dun think he knew this..i hated bball becoz it was very violent to mi in pri sch..then it was during tat time i started to accept bball u know..i wld say things between us were very complicated during tat time..coz of a lot of reasons..but sec 2 n 3 were the happiest moments brought by a fren..a guy fren..realli..lotsa stuff we did..said..bla bla..no way will i ever forget tat man..:)..somehow..everytime i run into probs..hez the first person i will confront..(n all mi listening ears also..;)..)hmm..until now..sometimes whenever i meet probs..i will still wan to confront him though i didnt in the end..dunno y i feel very comfortable with him..n he seemed to have the ability to cheer mi up through his advice..to mi..hez like..sorta an quan wang like tat u know..hmm..then later we became jie n di..then actualli in last yr..dec..27..i supposed to give him an ans..whether i like him or not..i didnt give him the ans..he tot..actualli before tat i did le..i smsed him 1 fine morning..told him..i cant lose him as a fren..i think he got wad i meant..but he didnt know tat was the ans..he liked mi during tat time u know..i didnt know..i tot he liked sue lynn during tat time..n he tot i liked lyon..(lyon..i daoed him le..he likes mi la..but i dunno..i find tat hez more of trying to possess mi u know..coz im the first gal he cant get..somemore he smokes which i hates..so in the end i tot dao him will be gd for him..)hmm..now thinking back..if i knew tat time he likes mi rite..i think theres a possibility tat i wld have like him sooner u know..coz tat time im starting to have those kinda feeling..but..coz i tot he liked sue lynn..tats y i told miself..cannot cannot..absorb miself in work..hang out with lyon n kelvin..(another working guy i gotta knew which i also daoed in the end coz of lyon)ya lor..but in the end..i still liked him le..then together..then break up..(38 is realli a jinx no. for mi..)actualli until now i still like him..i will nv forget those times..as frenz n when we are together..maybe i told u all before..tat ive heard the most touching sentence..the one which realli made mi melt..it came from him..i dunno if he still rmbed..:)..n sec 2 teachers day..im in hall n they played the lang hua yi duo duo song..then i saw him in field..kicking soccer..then pretending to strike guitar down there..realli cracks mi up..hmm..then last yr i think..sometimes he will come mi hs downstairs on friday..then we talk..then got 1 time..he down there running up n down..saying hez training napfa..a bit diao..coz itz a walking lane..(but it aint exactly a lane also..)..then there was this time we were in somerset..then he n edwin go take a balloon each..then someone silently hang the balloon on mi bag behind..hahaz..somehow..when i think of him i will wan to eat lollipop or m and n..hahaz..those days..thanks eric..thanks for being mi best fren..n mi di before..hahaz..mi first n ever di leh..:)..
hmm..im a gal who cries very easily..but..i cry until i very tired le..hao lei hao lei..i have a family which i love a lot..mi dad..mi mom..mi sis..realli a lot..but i nv said it out..whenever i meet with probs with them..i think most of the time i swallow it down..like wad the chinese doc said..though tat time she helped mi rub mi back n i felt pain..very pain..i nv say it out..juz bear with it..im those kinda gal..n when i break down is normally those times which i cant stand it anymore..mi dad..though i quarrel with him very often..i know wads rite n wads wrong..hey..im already 16..i ought to..sometimes i juz tried to be too guo fen..u know those kinda things..mi mom..mi best mama!!hahaz..nv expected her to actualli be the one who cheered mi when i did very badly for mi hist prelims..mi sis..a huge age gap we have..tats y we nv confront each other with our probs n we were nv realli tat close..she comes home late when i already slpt..those kinda things..we can actualli nv talk to each other for a wk or 2 de..tats y i realli envied u all who has siblings..be in gd terms with them la..haiyo..when u grow up dun ever dao them k..
if u r wondering how come suddenly i say all these stuff..is coz u know..im going to taiwan on tuesday le(i wun blog anymore until i come back..if i will..)im taking the flight at 8.30a.m..meaning to say tat i will have to reach the airport at 6.30 in the morning..down there..think 1-2 hours faster than spore time..n the temp is 16/26..i wun be bringing mi hp along..n..i know some of u realli hate mi say this alrite..but taiwan reallli very dangerous wad..got typhoon..earthquake..flood n all..so at least now when i say everything out le if smth happen i wun regret..but of coz i will be strong..mi is sharon lim leh..hahaz..i will try mi very best to be back okie?i promise..:)..still got 4E6 chalet on the 14 leh(actualli from 13-15 but i cant make it on 13 ma..)!!how can i miss it..!!..also..6A going to have gathering on 29!!!!hahahahz..i will be back on the 13..think in evening time i will reach singapore ba..n..here r some things i wanna tell some ppl here..:
--->jun xiang..hmm..from wad u said tat u think tat u still like mi..hmm..thank you..realli..hey..i think u r the guy who liked mi the longest already lor..break cheng wei's record le..hahaz..n wo shi xing fu de..coz not everyone who likes the first guy have the first guy liking them back!!hmm..sorri..wo shi zhong shen me dou mei shuo..but..the thing is..u know mi principle..nv to cheat a person's feelings..the thing is i still like someone..i still like him..im realli realli sorri u know..tat time when i was down when i was still with him i told u all tat when i didnt know u still like mi..i think i muz have realli made u very sad also..sorri..having u like mi for so long realli touched mi..but..im sure u will find a better gal in hc..:)..to mi..u r always the most perfect guy i have in mi mind..(serious..!!!)so dun ruin tat image okie..?hahaz..i'll be back for 6A gathering on 29!!:)
--->zoe..bee fang..li yun..jasmine..pearly..ying xia..hey guyz!!im realli realli sure u all will find tat special someone de..!!have faith in urself..alrite..!!:)..ly..congrats on u finalli put it down le..wish u all all the best!!!
--->eric..hey u!!!dun u ever break ur promise k(if u cant rmb wad u promised mi..recall!!)..i wanted to tell u this on ur bday de..but then now then i decided to tell u..u arh..next yr bday dun spend it alone le la..muz spend with the special 'her' okie!!:)..i give u mi blessings!!n hor..dun be silly silly de..next time the 'her'..dun think too much for her..coz u very nice as in u take care of her a lot..but smth think too much for her until she doesnt wan u to..get wad i mean..?believe in things u wanna believe..:)dun lose faith in urself..;)
yay!!im done with all tat i wan to say so long le..!!im going..!!take care!!!
